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Ever notice how life has an uncanny way of steering us back toward previous passions in a way we never envisioned. My own path took an unexpected turn when I rediscovered the childhood art of storytelling, a craft I quickly realized I still had an affinity for. This journey, though unforeseen, would eventually bring me face to face with a world of both limitless possibilities, and sobering truths. In the midst of life's curveballs and plot twists, the pages of my personal story began to fill with chapters. College, family, private practice as an alternative healer, nomad; Montanan. Penning stories became more than a mere pastime; it became a continuation of the narratives that had occupied my childhood. The Voice that had both guided and entertained me back then, never abandoned me in the chaos of adulthood. It just sat patiently in the wings, waiting my inevitable return. As I navigated this renewed passion for the written word, realization dawned on me: I wasn't just enjoying writing, I was actually quite good at it. Then came the moment that forever altered the trajectory of my writing journey—my discovery by Nat Sobel of Sobel Weber and Associates, New York. The news catapulted me into a whirlwind of possibilities, igniting a fire of aspirations. Images of the future danced in my mind's eye, and my head was bursting with plans that seemed as grandiose as they were intoxicating. I was not immune to the allure that has captivated countless aspiring writers before me. I harbored the dream of hitting it big! Bestsellers lists, vanity plates on my new car that read DEATHBY1, international speaking engagements, screen-deals and rubbing elbows with celebrities. I envisioned not only critical acclaim, but financial prosperity, my name synonymous with literary prowess—right up there alongside Lee Child! The future brimmed with glamour and prestige. However, as the initial rush of excitement settled, a healthy dose of reality began to seep in. I realized that, like the many who had come before me, this was the Real World and I was navigating uncharted waters. The dream of literary stardom was appealing, but the path was not without its challenges, the least of them being myself. Fear, (what the hell am I doing?), coupled with imposter syndrome (who the hell do I think I am?). In the end, I walked away from Sobel Weber, and that will be another blog for another day. I’ve found success in Indie-publishing, and am not interested in outside representation (but never say never). As I look back on this journey, I can’t help but laugh-out-loud at myself and my ignorant optimism riding the edge of extreme egoism. I find myself humbled by the evolution of my dreams. From unexpected beginnings, to the realization of my potential, to boldly going on my own, each step has been a lesson in both tenacity and humility. The future I once envisioned with grand ambitions, is now just an experience I allow to unfold as I get there. In the end, it's not just the destination that matters—it's the journey itself, filled with its highs and lows, that shapes us into the writers we aspire to be. While the dream of financial abundance is a powerful motivator, it's essential not to let this expectation overshadow the true joy of writing. The collision between dreams, and harsh truths, can evoke a range of emotions from disappointment, to frustration. For me, this intersection became a turning point—a chance to redirect my efforts, seek growth, and redefine what success meant to me (hint: peace plays a starring role). I’d be lying if I said my decision not to join Sobel Weber, an opportunity I was well-aware millions of my fellow new authors would have gladly removed limbs for, didn’t still haunt me on the rare occasion, but usually when my defenses, and immune system are both down. I should get, Itwasthebestdecisionformyconfidencecreativeflowandtheauthenticityofmywork tattooed across my forehead. The financial expectations of a bestseller should be tempered with an understanding of the unpredictable nature of the literary world. Many authors find financial success, but it's essential to recognize that it might not be instantaneous, or tied solely to bestseller status. Building a sustainable writing career involves a combination of factors including multiple book releases, diverse income streams, and ongoing dedication to honing your craft. We dream of our books becoming bestsellers, our stories receiving widespread acclaim, and our names gracing the covers of magazines. We envision immediate recognition of our talents and a fast track to literary stardom. And that’s not to say it can’t happen for any of us, but it’s a long and winding road to get from here to there, one that should be navigated with a healthy dose of realism. Embrace these realities while holding onto the passion that ignited your creative pursuit in the first place. Check yo’self, and make sure your expectations match up with the realities.
-Dani
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